WOW
:))
I finally am a senior 2 student :))
I never knew I could make it ....
from JR1J, JR2F, JR3I, SR1ScB and now
SR2ScD .
I .... am satisfied .
where to begin .
During form 3, I made my decision.
I remember I decide to choose Science stream
instead of following my sister's footstep and go to Arts
and everyone was expecting me to choose Arts as well .
But no .
Science for me.
I love science .
Anyway,
after my choice was made
I was expecting some encouragements
but NO .
All I got was,
"You know, you dont have a brain for science stream students
and .. I dont think you can make it .
You know you better go to Arts stream
just to be on the safe side."
and I was like WHAT THE FUCK NIGGA.
it's hurtful
especially when your parents dont believe in you too .
So I'm like fine
I wont give a shit at the moment .
Just because I'm not from some fucking genius A class
dosent mean I cant study .
and I'm like you know what, I'll prove it .
Lol then I dunno whjat happened but
they transferred me to Sr1ScB and I was like
LOL OKAYY .
1st sem .. I took it too easy .
I studied last minute and basketball all the time .
And my average was 46 .
and I'm like SHIT .
Literally my whole world was
SHITSHITSHITSHITSHIT
I'm gonna retain .
And as usual my parents gave me the
'I told you so' lecture .
and yeahh a few people was like
'if only u went to arts instead'
and my class teacher kinda looked down on me cuz
I wasnt frm the top class or as smart
as the students in Sr1ScB .
2nd sem ... I finally did it
:))
I improved 10 marks in my average ...
but .. I wasnt that satisfied either but at least i improved.
And I wanna prove people that I did not make the wrong choice
nor do I not have the so called 'brain'
(lol who thought of this shit anyway)
but yeahh .
I proved myself :))
and I was soo happy I thought my parents were gonna be proud of me .
BIG MISTAKE .
they were expecting more .
I was pissed .
so i guess 2 and 3rd sem were tough for me .
I cried a lot .
then I stopped trying .
I stopped trying to impress them cuz
I know they're never going to be proud of my little nut brain .
so yeah .
Till now .
I stopped .
But I didnt say I completely stopped.
I just stopped trying for them .
BUT ,
I pushed myself to do better because of someone .
Its not pressuring but I think its a good thing
so yeahh .
Even though I may not be as smart but
I'm willing to try .
Even though I'm in SR2ScD ..
but
I'm still striving for the results of SR1ScB .
I WILL TRY .
I'M SERIOUS .
2013，
no more fooling around
and less basketball .
I have to do it .
I dont wanna regret in the future .
I just wanna do it for myself
and someone :)
thanks to that person .
:)
for making me a better person .
I know I've said this a thousand times but holy mackerel
this is the 1st time I'm actually doing this kind of thing .
I dont actually do something big
and change my life just for one person
But idk ...
this seems special
does everything needs a reason ?
I doubt so .
so yeahh idk why but
that person is really important so
I have to acheive everything I said .
Or I will jump off the building
LOL
2013 ....
Dec 31st, 11.45
I was still at Hong Kong in a crowded place
trying to watch the fireworks .
Apparently I was short ...
So ended up watching it through other people's phone
LOL
I was wearing a cap, leather jacket and jeans and sneakers
and all the time this girl about the same age
who stood beside me kept looking at me
and I was sick at that time so ..
I kinda just looked at her
and she looked away
and then looked at me again.
and I was thinking
'lol what's your problem'
HAHA
if I wasnt sick that time
I would've talked to her.
But ...
life goes on :))
and then 12.00 ...
fireworks everywhere and everyone was celebrating and cheering
but all I could think of was ...
dear someone,
happy new year .
I wish you all the best
and hope you'll be really happy this year .
:))
爸，妈 。。
我终于升到级了
：））
(你们有开心吗...？)
# 为了你,
我辛苦一下
也是值得的 ...
:))
