Put your heart up

So ... I dont know what to say ..

:)

I have no idea have I been too obvious these days or not .

okay so I always stay back at the resource center everyday to study .

And I always wish that she would be there xD

My wish came true on Wednesday .

I just randomly came down the stairs and into the room when I saw her.

And we said hi in surprise .

I sat with Dominick, Dexter and Shu Thai .

Of course !

Joey was upstairs ,

so I ran up and I'm like shitshitshit she's here .

and Joey's like GO DOWN NOW .

and left me downstairs .

And at last she's like you must be really happy huh

xD

okay its a long story .

Cuz Becca and I were talking about this thing one day .

And Joey accidentally listened and she's like

sorry sorry sorry I didn't mean to listen !!

but she asked me who it was anyway .

After exam on Tuesday we went to the toilet and she asked me .

On the way, actually.

She's like TELL ME !!
and I said yeahh wait later .

she:"whyy ??? :D"

me:"Because of some reason"

she:"who's that person ?? *nudge nudge*"

okay the reason I didnt wanna say it cuz she was behind me .

And Joey was like so freaking loud .

Her reaction wasn't so bad when she found out though.

She was normal .

But in the exam hall she was like Hey Beatrice,

and she turned to her left .

LOL . -.-

I lost my image everytime she's around ..

Its either I'm playing crazily or screaming .

It's always these two . -.-

1st, I was at the staircase playing 'fighting' with Joey

and she walked past .

2nd, Joey bodygloved me and I chased her and

wrestled her and she was there too .

WHAAATT .

D:

Anyway ...... she stayed back on Thurs too .

Okay this time was really idk ... nervous ?

Because Dexter sat at her place and he asked me for phy tips

I copied down .

So I went over to give him . And she was looking at me .

I was standing up, she was sitting so in order to look at her,

I had to look down.

Whilst I gave him, quickly glanced at her .

Oh shit she was looking and I kinda looked into her eyes ?

for 2 secs

O__O 

I wasnt expecting her to be looking so I got really red in the face

and stumbled away .

VERY NICE WORK, BEATRICE,

THERE'S A PAT ON THE BACK FOR YOU .

now go get a cookie and fuck yourself up .

AGAIN .

So as usual, I talk to Dom,

not daring to look at her ...

and suddenly she asked:

"Hey Beatrice, what time u went hom yesterday ?"

me:"Oh . 5 ."

Her:"ohh .. how ??"

me:"I walked home . *sheepish smile*"

her:"wow why so late ??"

me:"Idk I like studying here... I cant study at home cuz all I do is

plop on the couch and snore haha . "

her:"ohh hahaha . well, do u understand physics ?"

At this point, she came over asdfghllj;lksd

she asked me a question frm a book and ... I noticed

she has this nice, strong lavender smell .

O.O I'm such a creeper .

Anyway, nervous part,

she was bending down and I look at the question and

our face was like so close

I swear my heart is gonna be everywhere .

Worst part is that she's asking me a question

about forces in equilibrium .

My worst one ...

me:" urmm ... I'll tr to solve it juz let me study it for a while"

her:"okayy thanks ! :)"

And I got really hardworking.

HAHAHAHA

I was planning that if I found the answer,

I wanna sit across her and teach her .

I got pissed off just searching for the answer till I found it ...

Just use the ruler to measure it .... -.-

Until I came down from researching the book ,

she was already packing up her stuff and carrying her bag

and my mind went

NONONONONONONONONONONO :'(

but I told her the answer anyway and her face went WTH that simple ?

same as mine HAHA

........ yeahh ...

and there she went .

And at night I texted her that if she still dont understand physics

I can teach her ...

and if she wanna ask me anything simple then go ahead

cuz I aint gon be sleeping till 3 .

and then we chatted for a while .

I asked her to embrace her inner panda during exam

:P

yeah I know, I'm lame :(

I'm always like this lame around someone I fancy

:(

BLAHBLAHBLAH THEN I GOT DISSAPOINTED

because I was suppose to teach her in school

but I didnt . why ??

BECAUSE I'M A FUCKING COWARD .

yes. I dont even dare to approach her !!!

OMG.

:'((

Okay yesterday, after exam,

I hung out a little in class ..

and Ni Ting was there ,

and she's not going back till 1.30

So i hung out with her,

in scC with the rest of their friends .

She was outside lookg at the scenery

and chatting with her close friend .

there were 5 ppl in class,

Me, Ni Ting, Shi Min, Valerie and Jia Yin .

They were talking about poop

HAHAHAHA

Then in the class while hanging out halfway,

I sorta lie down on the table.

and Her head poked in suddenly...

and she chatted with Valerie for a while,

and there's this conversation where I

kept thinking about it

Valerie went :"哦 你去陪他/她啦。。

因为我们全部都有别人了，只有你 Forever Alone. "

and She sweared at her xD

and went out of the class .

HAHAH

the type I would do if someone is being too obvious

in front of the person I like ?

o.O

Idk it just felt weird.

I didnt dare to look. and now,

I'm still wondering who the person was

she was reffering to ...

But ... you know,

I wouldnt think that ...

I just hope .

That's what I do in life people,

I only dream.

Cuz good thinkg will never happen to me

:)

Only to everyone,

But me .

She uploaded a new picture

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I died a little .

And my heart skipped a beat .

I'm sorry .

AHAHA.

and I found her blog .

I SOUND CREEPY OMG .

okokokokok confessions .

Truth be told ...

I recently upload pictures ...

Just to hope that she could see it ....

:/

she did ... and she liked it .

:))

:))

:))

:))

:))

I'm retarded .

hahahaha .

During dinner I was thinking about P.E. next week,

about how we have to fucking skip rope -.-

My worst nightmare, and I realize ...

in ji dui,

I think she stands next to me ..

well, prolly not next but ...

VERY CLOSE .

its either her or her friend. I forgot .

but its one of them .

then I got excited I swear I'm gonna pee .

HEEHEEHEE

I'm smiling like crazy shit right now .

:)

:3

kthanksbaii .

:)

<3